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Germany, 2018

Original music : Fatoumata Diawara, Mathhias Wittwer, Lennart Saathoff Production : KHM - Kunsthochschule für Medien Köln / Academy of Media Arts Cologne, Magoko, Cramer

Programmed by Carolin Ziemann


French, English, Italian

DOK Leipzig Festival 2018 - German Feature Film Competition (Leipziger Ring Award)

Films from DOK Leipzig


As a young girl growing up in a rural village in Kenya, Beryl thought that all women in the world have to be “circumcised” by going through Female Genital Mutilation/Cutting (FGM/C) at a young age; therefore she went through the ritual at attender age as a rite of passage. Little did she know about the effects of FGM/C. Many years later she learns about a rather new reconstructive surgery that promises to give back what was lost once. In her author-driven documentary "In Search…” she explores the emotional dilemma by talking to other women who went through similar experiences. Beryl is trying to find out whether she should undergo this surgery, a journey into the unknown for a second time: “Will I be making another terrible mistake?” or “Am I ready to face my trauma?” are the questions that drive this authentic and emotionally quest into the very self of a young woma.

Tënk's opinion

As a child in Kenya, filmmaker Beryl Magoko was subjected to a life-threatening ritual that many girls undergo even today. At the time, “female circumcision” – a friendly, barely adequate term for the genital mutilation she endured in terrible pain – seemed to her like something that was an integral part of growing up. Today she knows that it doesn’t have to be that way. Knowledge alone doesn’t help her, so she meets other victims who, like her, waver between anger and shame and still suffer from the procedure decades later.
What makes this film special is the great honesty and openness with which the women talk about their search for peace with themselves and with what has happened. Without a doubt, this special atmosphere is a result of the fact that director Beryl Magoko herself is on a quest and does not describe the subject as an outsider, but struggles with it as someone personally affected.

Luc-Carolin Ziemann
Film programmer, author and trainer

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